Home. The place where you go to at the end of the day, knowing you are safe. Or the place where your family and friends surrounds you. Or the community you grew up in. The country that raised you. Home means different things to everyone, but we can all agree that home isn’t classified as the physical place where you live. It’s an intangible feeling that nurtures you with love; it’s the home within you.
Everything around us often changes faster than we want it to. The places and people that surround us are constantly evolving, and so are we. Regardless of how much we surround ourselves with – family, friends, things, work – we are on our own at the end of the day. If we always keep searching for that physical place of solace every time we’re in despair, we’ll end up disappointed if one day, we can’t find it anymore.
To me, home can simply be the house that I live in now. I call the country that bore me my second home (as it’s not the country I was born in). But I know that soon, I’m going to college, and everything around me will change. The place I call ‘home’, my new circle of friends and ‘family’, my everyday life. Though I’m extremely excited for this change, I know that it will also be a difficult transition for my introverted and shy self. I’ll take my time to adapt to all the changes, and hopefully I won’t miss my current home too much.
This anticipation got me thinking about how I should cope with this change. It was the kind of moment that makes you realize that you can’t keep being the same person if you want to propel forward. As cliche as you may feel when you read this, I searched within myself. I read, researched about spiritualism (meditation, specifically), meditated, and I realized that being at home means being at peace with myself.
You can’t find home unless you dig deep into your soul and personality, and try to understand everything and anything that you may have pushed away in response to the urgent demands of our daily life. I was fortunate enough to have this (bridge) year to do so, and I’m glad I gave myself the time to ‘tolerate’ myself (as I like to call it).
The breaking point of this situation was possibly when I got into meditation. I don’t take it as seriously as I should be, but research led me to unveil an understanding about the philosophy of meditation that helps me cope with daily situations. I plan to pursue this understanding further, as I think that it’s so important to invest time in ourselves, especially if we are living in the midst of the increasingly chaotic society of today.
Once you’re comfortable with your own self, you can be thrust into any unfamiliar situation and you can assure yourself that it’ll all be okay. You’ll know how to go back to your place of solace within you when you need it, and you’ll change with the circumstances in your life.
In contrast to popular belief, it is when we stop and reflect what allows us to see who we are, what our purpose is, and what we’re passionate about. It is not living a hectic life, possibly dictated by the demands of other people instead of those dictated by yourself. Not all of us has the opportunity nor luxury to live the tangible life that we want, but we can always find the purpose in what we do if we search for it.