I apologize for the long rambling comment but this clearly spoke to me 😅
“… I am blocking myself from the world.” wow few are the times i’ve read something that resonated with me so deeply.
I relate to this as shame has run my life since i grew out of childhood and everyday since then it’s been a battle to the point that even posting this comment (even though i’m completely anonymous) meant having to fight with my brain to convince it that it was ok and not dangerous in any way.
That is to say that I have spent years desperately trying to find an antidote for shame and the conclusion i came to at the present moment (im in my 20s so maybe i’ll find a real antidote later on in my life) is that probably there isn’t one but the power shame can be reduced by being compassionate and accepting of oneself.
Easier said than done but that’s why i believe it as a battle. It takes time to learn how to do that and a lot of energy, there are bad days and good days, but i like to believe that in the end it’ll be worth it as facing shame is (unfortunately) the only way to live a fulfilling life.
I have been a follower of yours across different platforms for a long time. I always respected your decision to keep a certain level of anonymity and even found it impressive given the general norm online nowadays. After reading this it is bittersweet to know that that decision might’ve in part been imposed by shame (not your fault of course!).
I believe that being able to live as your own unapologetic self is probably the closest thing to finding inner peace. To do that one must first know who they really are (again easier said than done) and then find the courage to share their true self with the world.
Needless to say, no one but yourself can decide how much of yourself to share online but even if in the future you’ll end up keeping your current “innie” and “outie” completely separated i really hope that shame won’t be the reason behind it.
I wish you good luck :) (and if you’ve made this far i apologize again for the long comment and the many english mistakes probably in it).
I believe everyone’s journey will be different when it comes to accepting and correcting negative feelings of self-worth. With my tendency to self-isolate, I have often found the most solace through books, films and TV series. Seeing and understanding other people’s suffering makes me feel less alone in my own mind, which is what I struggle with the most.
I recently watched Baby Reindeer and it was really healing to see such a guttural portrayal of trauma on TV, and how the protagonist was able to redeem himself in the end (spoiler: by expressing his suffering and thus living his life authentically). It’s the same reason why I keep posting content despite it all.
Thank you so much for this comment and for sharing your own story! I really appreciate it, and just like you resonate with what I wrote, I resonate back with your words <3
i had been watching your youtube videos for a long long time and i really enjoyed how peaceful they were and all your little thoughts, im glad to see you writing. im glad i got to see you doing even better in life. stay healthy <3
omg thank you for sharing
Thank you for sharing this i hope you are doing well 😊
Thank you, Trisha!
I apologize for the long rambling comment but this clearly spoke to me 😅
“… I am blocking myself from the world.” wow few are the times i’ve read something that resonated with me so deeply.
I relate to this as shame has run my life since i grew out of childhood and everyday since then it’s been a battle to the point that even posting this comment (even though i’m completely anonymous) meant having to fight with my brain to convince it that it was ok and not dangerous in any way.
That is to say that I have spent years desperately trying to find an antidote for shame and the conclusion i came to at the present moment (im in my 20s so maybe i’ll find a real antidote later on in my life) is that probably there isn’t one but the power shame can be reduced by being compassionate and accepting of oneself.
Easier said than done but that’s why i believe it as a battle. It takes time to learn how to do that and a lot of energy, there are bad days and good days, but i like to believe that in the end it’ll be worth it as facing shame is (unfortunately) the only way to live a fulfilling life.
I have been a follower of yours across different platforms for a long time. I always respected your decision to keep a certain level of anonymity and even found it impressive given the general norm online nowadays. After reading this it is bittersweet to know that that decision might’ve in part been imposed by shame (not your fault of course!).
I believe that being able to live as your own unapologetic self is probably the closest thing to finding inner peace. To do that one must first know who they really are (again easier said than done) and then find the courage to share their true self with the world.
Needless to say, no one but yourself can decide how much of yourself to share online but even if in the future you’ll end up keeping your current “innie” and “outie” completely separated i really hope that shame won’t be the reason behind it.
I wish you good luck :) (and if you’ve made this far i apologize again for the long comment and the many english mistakes probably in it).
I believe everyone’s journey will be different when it comes to accepting and correcting negative feelings of self-worth. With my tendency to self-isolate, I have often found the most solace through books, films and TV series. Seeing and understanding other people’s suffering makes me feel less alone in my own mind, which is what I struggle with the most.
I recently watched Baby Reindeer and it was really healing to see such a guttural portrayal of trauma on TV, and how the protagonist was able to redeem himself in the end (spoiler: by expressing his suffering and thus living his life authentically). It’s the same reason why I keep posting content despite it all.
Thank you so much for this comment and for sharing your own story! I really appreciate it, and just like you resonate with what I wrote, I resonate back with your words <3
i had been watching your youtube videos for a long long time and i really enjoyed how peaceful they were and all your little thoughts, im glad to see you writing. im glad i got to see you doing even better in life. stay healthy <3
Thank you for being here all throughout 🥹 I hope you’re healthy and doing well too!
missed you :(
Thanks for sharing. Here’s to being ourselves unapologetically. 🙌
Amen 🥂